Sad news

Earlier today, my cousin went in for an emergency c-section due to some complications she was having. My mom just called not too long ago and said the baby had died. My heart goes out to my cousin. I know she and her husband were really excited for their new son to come into their life. I saw her about a week ago. She seem happy and everything seemed fine so this was quite a shock to me. It really made me think. Although I have never been one of those women who have enjoyed being pregnant and my pregnancies have never been easy, I have been blessed to have 3 healthy children with no major problems. A few of my cousins close to my age have had to deal with miscarriages, deaths, or difficult disabilities with their children. I am the first person to admit my kids drive me nuts sometimes. Sometimes I wonder if I'm capable of raising them and I wonder if I am doing good enough. Or, if I will do such a terrible job that they'll spend years in therapy trying to recover from the job I've done. This has put things into perspective for me. I thank my Heavenly Father for my children, and for the blessing it is to raise them. I also thank my Heavenly Father for the knowledge that even if something terrible does happen and one of us leaves this earth sooner than we'd like, our family is eternal and I will see them again.